a life to love

United States Strongman Nationals is next weekend in Detroit…. It’s been over a year since I competed.  Some days I’m ok with this, other days I miss it; but the being ok outweighs the missing.

Two weeks before last year’s Nationals, I wrote a blog after swapping out the license plate bracket on my Jeep. time to start doing the things I talked about the nerves leading up to last year’s competition, I talked how I was ready mentally for a break from training… what I didn’t realize at the time, how desperately my body needed the break too.  But most of all I talked about how I didn’t want to spend my summer just training for another competition, I didn’t want to, what felt like, waste my summer and miss out on the few short warm summer months of Michigan, only training.

Last year my Valkyrie sister Brandi took some time off and headed out with her “man-friend” (I freakin LOVE that term) to Montana for some amazing camping.  I cannot even begin to describe how jealous I am.  That is something I have always wanted to do but just kept saying, someday.  Well.  Enough with this someday shit.

I am very happy to say, a little over a year after this blog was written, I have gone hiking countless times, camping in several different locations in lower Michigan -I have yet to make it to the Upper Peninsula (that’s on this year’s plans).  I have been indoor rock climbing; off-roading at the Silver Lake Sand Dunes, run other muddy off-road trails.  Traveled to Louisiana to spend my birthday….  I went snowshoeing! Even though our winter wasn’t nearly what they usually are, I still managed to get out at least once.

 

In the not so distant past, too many times I’ve said some day, I’m gonna do this or go here…. last year I definitely decided enough of that. Enough of living my weekdays counting down till the weekend only to really do nothing more than house work and grocery shopping.Literally, wasting the days, weeks, months and years away.  Or at least that’s how I saw that mentality.  While my life has been no where near boring; I’ve always told myself, my best days are not in the past, my best days are right now and tomorrow. While I haven’t been out traveling the world, I’ve been exploring my local state in all four seasons. I’ve shared pictures on Instagram and Facebook, I’ve written short blogs on some of the adventures and my feelings.

Thursday evening, my boyfriend says to me: looking at your photos and your sister Ellie’s photos, I realize aside from deployments, I haven’t had the adventurous life that you two are living….and I want us to have that together.  I cannot even express how this made my heart absolutely SORE!!

Immediately after, I called my sister to share my excitement. She laughed but with almost as much excitement. See, Ellie and I are planning a backpacking trip. There’s no exact date yet due to all the things you on with both our jobs, and that’s ok. She recently started dating a fellow adventurer and I’m super stoked for her. But just the idea of being able to plan adventures….I’m literally beaming all over again.

Also in the past year, even more so in the past month, I’ve become determined not to be so mechanically illiterate… While, I have learned I am leaps and bounds ahead of your average woman my age, I still feel rather lost once I pop the hood on my Jeep and start looking at the engine.

So last weekend, I changed my headlights and fog lights -upgrading them from factory to LEDs.  Then my neighbor and I cut the ends of my stock JKU bumper, yesterday we secured the new stubby a little better and removed the plastic aesthetic “skid plate.”  We also got an overhead counsel smittybilt MOLLIE system installed (which I am seriously in love with this thing); I also changed the hood lettering from Rubicon to Lady Jaye.  There is a handful of other small things that was accomplished; but over all I am quiet proud of myself.  My neighbor is teaching me with hands on lessons how to tool my own Jeep which I am absolutely ecstatic!  In fact last night I sent the boyfriend a text:

me: It’s 250 on a Saturday night and I’m reading about catalytic converters.  This started because my check engine light is on.  Code came back for on the of the o2 sensors.  I had no idea there was 2.  There’s an up and down stream, I actually know the difference and which banks.  You’re probably laughing right now.  But it’s clicking, all these little things.  So I need to change one of my sensors and I’m watching a YouTube video on it…

him:  O2 sensors are easy to do

me: Well.  I’m gonna be changing one and finding out

him: lol, I love you

As minor as this exchange may seem to some, I am very proud of expanding my knowledge.  For the most part I still feel like an idiot when I pop the hood and began looking at everything, I still feel overwhelmed, however I know that I am no longer totally lost anymore.  God bless the ability to YouTube pretty much anything, and Google everything.

 

Well I guess I should confess that I am starting to get old
All the latest music fads all passed me by and left me cold
All the kids are talking slang I won’t pretend to understand
All my friends are getting married, mortagages and pension plans
And it’s obvious my angry adolescent days are done
And I’m happy and I’m settled in the person I’ve become
But that doesn’t mean I’m settled up and sitting out the game
Time may change a lot but some things may stay the same

And I won’t sit down
And I won’t shut up
And most of all I will not grow up
And I won’t sit down
And I won’t shut up
And most of all I yeah I won’t grow up

Oh maturity’s a wrapped up package deal so it seems
And ditching teenage fantasy means ditching all your dreams
All your friends and peers and family solemnly tell you you will
Have to grow up be an adult yeah be bored and unfulfilled
Oh when no ones yet explained to me exactly what’s so great
About slaving 50 years away on something that you hate
Look I’m meekly shuffling down the path of mediocrity
Well if that’s your road then take it but it’s not the road for me

And I won’t sit down
And I won’t shut up
And most of all I will not grow up
And I won’t sit down
And I won’t shut up
And most of all I yeah I won’t grow up
And I won’t sit down
And I won’t shut up
And most of all I will not grow up

And if all you ever do with your life
Is photosynthesize
Then you deserve every hour of these sleepless nights
That you waste wondering when you’re gonna die

Now I’ll play and you sing
The perfect way for the evening to begin
Now I’ll play and you sing
The perfect way for the evening to begin

And I won’t sit down
And I won’t shut up
And most of all yeah I won’t grow up
And I won’t sit down
And I won’t shut up
And most of all I will not grow up
And I won’t sit down
And I won’t shut up
And most of all I will not grow up

-Frank Turner
Photosynthesis

My beautiful doorless Lady Jaye is sitting in the garage, just waiting for me…. Yea, this morning is doing the adulting things, like going to get groceries.  But just because were adults doesn’t mean we have to be boring; living an unfulfilling life.  I also still have no interest in talking mortgages or pension plans.

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Author: boxerjeep

I am a mid 30s pawrent to my babies Reese (boxer) and Grimm (pitbull). A tattooed Army veteran, yogi and strength athlete. My second loves after my pups are tattoos, my Jeep, random music, real books, ancient history, the outdoors and art.

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